I kind of get the impression Armus, that you are maybe part of a commune or something similar. A very controlled environment where cooperation is fundamental to everyone's daily life. I wonder if there is an idea that cooperation and competition are thought of as antonyms? I think in one aspect that could be seen as true, but I would very much disagree on that being a black and white line. They can exist together, competition does not mean conflict.
Every "environment" is controlled by something. I would prefer conscious control, involving self-control and restraint and work and care, to unconscious manipulation. But I am not part of a commune or anything similar. Although...
In two of the places I spend much of my time there are contrasting Amish communities. I live and work among and with them, and they've taught me a few things. One community, in central Ohio, has been in place since the middle seventies. From the beginning the existence of the group was only possible by commerce, as the founding members were apparently unskilled or uninterested in subsistence. But there were customers hungry for a gimmick. Today the families of this community are commercial businesspeople with one exception, and are all wealthy or pretending to be wealthy, again with one (the same) exception. The community bond is social, to some extent cultural, to a lesser extent religious, but in no way practical. The members do not need one another as parts of a whole, and they compete with one another commercially, which would be an impossible concept to the members of the other community I know best.
This group has been working ground in central Virginia since the late eighties. The community was founded on the context of a good place. The land was and is good enough to live on. There were no customers. The members are farmers on a small scale, most families specializing in one trade outside of basic husbandry. While this creates a monopoly of sorts, the interdependent nature of the community ensures that no one is taken advantage of. There is no commercial competition, no retail commerce, and very little importing and exporting of goods. Unlike the Ohio group, these people are never seen in Wal-Mart (besides buying all of their household goods there, the Ohio bunch unabashedly repackage Wal-mart groceries for enormously inflated resale to oohing aahing dunces). This Virginia community is one in a real sense, and while I find their attitude toward certain technologies to be baffling or even hypocritical, their care for the land and each other, and their lack of competition, is inspiring to me.
"Competition does not equal conflict"
True. Ecology (though it involves conflict too) is an example of competition that preserves and equalizes and expands. This miracle of a stable yet wild and expanding multiculture has not been reproduced by humanity. The money economy is an example of competition that destroys and unbalances and constricts.
Thus my original question: what is recreational competition an example of?
Is anything other than my personal oddity indicated by my disinterest in winning and losing? Would I be a better or worse or simply different person if I was competitive? If the basic definition of a healthy ecosystem is rich, integrated survival via a system of checks on "winning" (see kudzu, the ecological Wally World of coal country), should I or how can I apply this lesson to my own life?
But I didn't mean to say of this.
Unfocused
Poking through the fencerow behind my house I broke off a rose thorn in my hand. The fever in it reminds me of myself. Get it out.